Monday, August 31, 2009

my veryOWN personal FEELing

31st aug, 09. 2252hour

Looking back past few days, I was just moody as I spent couples years in my current company…ops I should say my ex-company which I was given many opportunities to grow was going to close down. I was the last batch who left the company.

My Director has actually asked me to stay with the company until year end, but I found I couldn't continue to waste my times here so decided to move on. Though I enjoyed the free and easy life is past four months, and friends surrounding me damn envy me about my life here. But, one thing I can tell is whatsoever u saw is not necessary the truth.

By the time I walked out the company, it was really sad. I rather I don't know the truth but in fact my ex-GM did told me something that really cruel. U can't imagine how cruel the reality is? The management actually decided to close down the company 3 years ago. The most sarcastic thing is I was joined the company 3 years ago.

Well, at my age, I do felt hard to start all over again. Sometimes I was just wondering why my career isn’t just smooth? My ex-company has restructured my department for 3 times. For me, this is just hilarious.

Be frank, I can't sleep well in the past few days. Most of the time, I just woke up 3-4 am, back then I intended continue to sleep. Anyway, I just can’t sleep tough. Friend asked me why? I also don’t know what happened to me!!

I do feel like looking for someone to talk to, but I just can’t find even one from my phone book. From A to Z, no one seems like the most appropriate person for me to talk to. Am I just avoiding something? Or I can say I am not kind of person who really likes to share the ONE deep inside me? Am I just fake in front of all my friends? I’m scared to be the one who listen instead of who counsel?? Am I too ego in this? Well, one thing I can t tell myself “I am just pathetic!!”

By the way, whatever happened is happened and I just feel released after I have the chance to speak out. “Thank you!!” specially dedicated to 3 persons that walked through the dark moment with me. Especially the one who ears that ready for me all the times and comforted me when I was depressed.

“Bro, I’m now proudly to tell you that I really really felt released and I do have nice sleep these 2 days. It was just nice and tight and I just loved it ”

Tomorrow is going to be my brand new beginning. I’ve got myself prepared and ready for the challenge.

1st September 2009

31st aug, 09. 1403hour

There are 2 important things in my life in another HOURs to go:-

==> The release of Whitney Houston's brand new album I Look To You which I has been waiting for years. This is extremely excited for me as I was Jun, this year. OMG, I just can't believe that it will be happened in another hours.

==> A brand new challenge in my career. Start from tomorrow, I'll be joining new company which is totally different from what I'm doing now. Nervous? Worry? Anxiety?Unease? I couldn't tell but just feel it.....

Wel, may GOD bless me!!

miss-communication

31st aug, 09. 1152hour

I just have some emails with a bro. There is some missunderstanding due to some misscommunication!!

I've found out that written form and verbal form message are far different as far as the meaning of the message itself is concerned. I think written message just deadly while verbal message will be more "lively", as we can "tuned" the message. LOL

No doubt the advancement of technology brought us closer, we called it Global Village. We can have friends throughout the world. We are just close to each other. However, technology also brought us far away from each other "unintentionally".

All these things seem won't happened last time, in fact i do prefer to calls instead of messaging. Don't you think in the same way?

Saturday, August 29, 2009

hangOVER!!

29th aug, 09. 0932hour

By the time I wrote this, my head is just heavy like hell due to hangover yesterday night.

The planned supper was initially took place at Tmn. U, however it ended up at Bukit Indah's Station One!! In fact, me, Ivan and Chris were driving all the way from Tmn. U to Tmn Sutera Utama, again to Tmn. Perling due to we intended to get a proper place to have the wine I bought. In fact, we were driving an hour and final decision was made by Ivan.



We did have a great night there while enjoying the red wine, which is taste good!! I don't think Chris will agree to this as he still nightmaring about RED WINE!! LOL.

The environment there quite nice, but the most important thing is the 2 fella besides me. I think they are just nice!! Initially, a waiter name Ah Ben served us, then I called myself Ah-Hur, we became Ben-Hur!! Then, there was a waitress name "Little Green", then I called myself "Little Teh", then it became Little Green Teh. This made them laugh out of loud!

In fact, they charged us RM15.00 for opened red wine there. While they serve, accidentally a glass of wine was pour out, then I quickly told Ivan that RM 2.99 was wasted. Manatau later, Chris tried to "cold" one of the glass full of wine inside the bucket. OMG, this is just bastarding where the glass sinking and the wine was actually mixed with the water inside. WTF, another RM 2.99 was wasted!! haha

Another funny thing is when I praise a waiter "u are just nice", well this is basically a way to praise conservatively. If i were say "u are perfect", it may not good. However, I really want to kill Chris, as he just followed it "u are just nice ONLY huh". This made me can't stop to laugh!

In fact, before that we did ordered one bucket of Carlsberg Gold, but 5 bottles have been finished by us in short while. As our rules and regulations, so long people come and toast your glass, you have no choice but to empty your glass. That's why the 5 bottles were gone in second. Well, due to SOME reason, Chris is actually not so prefer to have wine, he keep on insist to keep 1 bottle for him...however, he seems has no choice. LOL

For red wine, we don't really bottom-up it as we intended to be class-fella, as we do enjoy it slowly. However, in order to make it fast, something has been done to make Ivan drink more - French Kiss...ops it should be French Fries Kiss. I will never forget this, the look of Ivan is just hilarious whenever he saw me and Chris french-fries-kissing there. He just can't stand it and keep drinking wine...haha

The supper was actually ended up with a glass of mix-wine = wine + water which created by Chris. Well, I can say it was the worst wine I ever had!!






Fallen angel? Or ET?? wuahaha...Anyway, this lead me to think of "Angel does exist but sometimes without wings. We called it FRIEND"


Guess who is this?Obviously is Ivan la...

We took long time for this. Ivan was forced to be PRO but end up just funny. Left hand side, go down a bit. Right hand side smile, after a lot of commands, the end results still looked like this. This is just hilarious!!

On our way back to Tmn U, we proceed to have a teh-o there. Again, 3 of us seems like not enough. We even toast each other glass at mamak. I was wondering all the workers there think that 3 of us were "siao-siao".

After sending Ivan back, on the way to send Chris back to his house, we decided continue hangover. He brought me to a chinese restaurant which I don't really like then we proceed to 7-1-1 to buy our favorite - Guiness Stout!! 2 dumb-guys even playing around inside the shop. 4 small bottles? 2 big bottles? Can't even make the good decision. End up, we just bought 2 small + 1 big + 1 cigar.

We just drink the stout out the shop, he just sit on my rear front. Well, smoking + drinking in the middle of the night, it was just perfect! But, all of sudden it was raining, then I request to stay at his place. We just finish one small bottle only, then wanted to sleep. Then huh, we were crazy to go for pool at his place. Manatau, in the midst of pooling, we kena complaint that we will disturb the residents there. In fact, there is message posted the pooling time is start from 9.00am, in fact we were there at 5.00am+. Well, Chris was just screwed up as he don't even know about the time frame!!! LOL

We went back to his unit around 6.00am then we proceed to sleep. I do have a nice sleep there though it was just 2 hours. I woke up at 8am and saw his face, as he seem like having nice dream. I don't wish to wake him up but I have no choice as I need to come back to office. Unwillingly, he woke up but he continue to crawl down, well just like a big baby boy. haha...

I do enjoy all these though I was a bit hangover...head still heavy now....

Bro, if u were happened to see this, I wanted to let you guys know, i do appreciate yours companion, million of thanks. I will always love both of you, yes always will!!

Thursday, August 27, 2009

waLK wat YOU TaLKed

27th aug, 09. 1320hour

Sometimes I was thinking am I too serious as far as a relationship is concerned??!!

Well, basically I’m kind of person who loved to meet new friend. So long I’ve found that we can tune into same channel, I’ll cherish him/her as my close friends! I like to share everything in my life with and ofcuz I hope to share his/her in the other way round.

Somehow, things are not as simple as I think. Life is just complicated, so do the relationship between 2 parties. Sometimes, I expected he or she will treat me just the way I treat him/her. However, reality is just far different as what I expected. Well, such a foolish thoughts!! In fact, every one of us is just unique creature in the reality. We should have our own way in handling our daily life.

Again, I ask myself “Am I see thing as simple as I think??” The world is kept on changing so do our way of thinking. Just imagine when a friend told you something and it seems like a promise of something. Then, you take it seriously. However, it ended up the so called “promise” was just nothing at all. How do you feel??

Basically, I won’t do that. Whatever I talked, I will just do it. This is my philosophy that “we walk what we talked”!! Back then, I hope people will treat me with the same way. Once, I discovered it ended up with “zero-action”, the feeling is really cannot be described in black and white.

The more I take it, the more I get hurt. However, I was just stubborn enough, never learned from mistake. Every times I get hurt, I told myself not to get involved such incidents again. But, when I meet new friends that same channel again, I just can’t control myself and just follow my own feeling. End up??

I think I just expected too much and maybe is time for me to change my own perspective.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

the Diva Is Back - Whitney Houston

26th aug,09. 0930hour

Whitney's brand new album cover. I Look To You will be released on 1st Sept,09.

Started from 6/20, I knew that she will be coming back to stage with brand new album. Lord Jesus, I've been waiting for this for long time. Years ago, news reported she will be back but it ended up NOPE as she addicted to drug. How disappointed I am by that time. However, the wait is over now.

If you were like her, you can start listening to her brand new songs via youtube. As of now, I've listened to 2 songs -
"I Look to You" and "I Didn't Know My Strength". It were just awesome. Especially I Look to You, as of today, it was "the best of 2009" and a must listen song in de year of 2009!!!

Wow, it touched me at the most, when the first time i heard it..."as i lay me down, heaven hear me now...." I almost cry...really cant describe the feeling...erm it seem like u seen a friend that u never met for years and you were missed her all the time. then when it come to...."I look to u...I look to u...." I really cant control myself already...

If you were happened to log in youtube, try this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w23R8phXaSc I just loved this official video

A 1.54mins video completed shown her life time career and it going to be new phase after 1st Sept 09

LEGEND - Over 170 million combined album, singles & videos sold worldwide

ICON - The only artist to chart seven consecutive #1 Billboard Hot 100 hits

Time Magazine -"If the voice is a musical instrument, hers is a Stradivarius."

She gave u good love
She saved all her love for you
She was the greatest love of all
She danced with you
She was so emotional
She ran to you
She was your miracle
Her love was your love
She believed in you
She learned from the very best
She tried it on her own
She exhaled
She had nothing
She's every woman ...and
She will always love you


Lesson Learned ~Friendship~

26th aug,09. 0920hour

I was wondering how people treat those SMS they have received? How's the way people read SMS???

Technology did brought us to be closer, however it made us be stranger also. Before the use of SMS is common, we contact via phone which is more "live" to me. At least we can hear each other voice, don't you feel that it was just very close.

As of today, ask yourself, if u wanted to date a fren out, you will call him/her directly or rather SMS to him/her?? I think 9 out of 10 will SMS!! Unfortunately, I am 1 from the 9!! This is just hilarious!! Again, I think the one and the only one reason is "we scared to be turned-down!!!" I think this is just common within the 9!! I am not denying - I do scared!! hehe

Our life style totally changed due to the advancement of technology....

well, come back to the topics now. Ask yourself for the reaction whenever you received SMS from fren and check below circumstance to see if there any similarities with you:-

Junk SMS
I think this is frustrated especially when u are busy or when u are in your sweet dream. This totally suck and u even wanna burn that stupid company. If u were in good mood, u will just simply read and get it deleted.

SMS from Ordinary Fren
It will be impressive sometimes as some frens did sent some so called "encouraging sms" which is sound meaningful and most of the times, you will just "reforward" something else in return. This is so called "ordinary friendship"!! LOL

SMS from People You Like
You will feel happy and will read through the whole message from top to bottom. And try to understand and interpret what they trying to tell u. In fact, you are more happier to reply them.

SMS from VIP in Your Life
I think you are more likely to feel excited especially those message is not forwarded from other. Is really "hand-written", original from the fella. I think this is more likely to brighten your day if you were receive it early in the morning. Eventually, u can even have nice and tight sleep, if happened the SMS reached you before you go to bed.

Well, what if one day, the one who received your SMS is just ignorant. How do you feel? Maybe I say in this way to make it understandable. U treat one of your fren as close fren then u try to share many thing with him/her. However, those SMS u sent out just being treated as normal message where the receiver don't even complete reading the message and you find out. What do you think huh??!!! This really puzzled me a lot. Ofcuz I don't hope you to have such a fren.

In fact, the reality told me, even u treat him/her as close fren, it doesn't means that he/she need to do the same. This is just "one-sided-friendship".

Sometimes, I told myself not to "invest" so much of effort in a relationship with friends as it always turn up with something that really out of my expectation. I ever asked myself, am I expected too much?? haha...I can't even answer to the question. Maybe yes, maybe no. Or I rather say, don't ever insist on my own stand as everyone on earth is just unique creature.

We have to "adjust" our own stand point from time to time, in dissimilar circumstances to make people surrounding happier, ofcuz included ourselves. Doesn't this sound excellent for all?

Well, I've learned again from this and I believe the chances for me to get hurt again seem lessen from now onwards.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

chris khor's birthday lunch @ 25-08-09

25th aug, 09. 1713hour

Today is my bro's birthday and after big round discussion, we decided to have simple dinner at San Jiang, a typical chinese restaurant that near to my office...

below are some of our conversation:-

Chris:
Bro,
Today is your big2 day!!
If u hasn’t dated anyone, let’s lunch together. Please confirm if u can make it as I know u are always busy……LOL

Terry:
Ok bro I reserve for you all today lunch.


Wuahaha...this is just hilarious as he sound like Prime Minister, got many invitations. LOL

Anyway, we - Ricky, Alvin, myself, Ivan and the birthday boy do have great lunch just now.

~a very simple but meaningful lunch~





from the left: Ivan ~ Chris ~ Terry ~ Alvin ~ Ricky

Friday, August 21, 2009

farewell lunch @ Pattaya Restaurant & Coffee House

21st aug,09. 1719hour

I will be moving to new industry from my current company. I can't state my "last day here" as my Ah-Gong told me, never ever said "last day" which it will give negative image wor. Since then, I never use "last day" till now...LOL

Well, back to topic, my "leftover colleagues" arranged farewell lunch and they said wanna go for Thai Food. The very first place we went was actually a massage center which a mistake from them. This is so hilarious when the waiter told me "We are not makan place"!!!

Then, we proceed to Pattaya Restaurant & Coffee House, which is just located opposite of the massage center.

The place quite nice and very comfortable for dining purpose. As for their food and beverage, the taste quite ok and for price wise, I can say reasonable. The mist important thing is their service. They did provide good service, very friendly, with smile especially their manager - Grace, smile all the way.

We did complaint the fish served still raw, and end up we were given a plate of fresh mango, 2 desserts as compliments. I think this is the way to build long term relationship.

Overall say, is worth to go!!








Fresh Thai Lemon Juice Steam Fish - this is perfect!!

Mango!!

KangKung Sambal

Seafood Tomyam, u must asked them to add milk. I just loved it!!

Thai Sambal Lala

Fresh Thai Lemon Juice

Watermelon + Pineapple from Thai

Yam + Coconut Milk

Fresh Longan + Sagu + Cocunut Milk

Fresh Mango

Traditional Thai Body Massage

Foot Massage

Thursday, August 20, 2009

20th aug, 09. 1213hour

Recently I was just addicted to facebook. FB became my closest fren nowadays. I found it was just beautiful as i met many old frens here. Ofcuz FB helped me to kill my lonely moment also - I can play game or take up some quizzzzz....

I just took a quiz named "What Is Your Myers-Briggs Personality Type?", and the results seem accurate ==> Introversion, Sensing, Feeling, Perception @ ISFP

It says:

You are quiet, friendly, sensitive, and kind. Check, even not 100% accurate, I can say 99.99% perfectly described me..haha

You enjoy the present moment, what's going on around you. Check. Well, anyone who disagree??!!

You like to have your own space and to work within your own time frame. Check. OMG, I just loved this!!

You are loyal and committed to your values and to people who are important to you. Check. Jesus Lord, 100% accurate!!

You dislike disagreements and conflicts, and you do not force your opinions or values on others. Well, someone may disagree this....LOL

Famous people with your same ISFP personality include: Marie Antoinette, Marilyn Monroe, Elizabeth Taylor, Michael Jackson, John Travolta, and Paul McCartney.

Overall, i can said the results is quite accurate. Cheers

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

我喜欢~ 我的心情写照 I~

18th aug, 09. 1818hour

我都不知道自己是怎样了。打从认识你的那天起,心中对你有种莫名的好感。当时间进入第二天,心中被你所激起的涟漪是激动的。这股莫名的好感并没有因为我们聚会结束而消失。

问问自己,这种感觉对自己来说已经变得陌生。与其说陌生,不如我说是似曾相识。毕竟自己已经踏入了俗世所谓的“婚姻的坟墓”。

回忆之前,那也应该是2-3年前的事情了。那一次也是我认为的最后一次。我不曾想过我会再一次拥有这种感觉,直到你的出现。自从认识的第一天,我跟他有很多的互动。我们都会相约到不同的地方小聚,到餐馆,小吃店,酒吧,歌厅。每一次短暂的聚会,我们都相处得很开心。这些都让我对他的好感越来越浓。每一次聚会的结束,我都觉得为什么美好的时光总是这么地短暂。是不舍得跟他分开吗?

人与人相处或许是靠缘份吧。与他共处的时候,对我来说是快乐的。跟他相处只有几个星期,感觉就像认识了很久很久。这或许是缘份吧!!

就这么短短的时间,心中对他的思念就一刻都不曾停过,而且是越来越浓。我承认很多时候我都在想念着他。想知道他在做些什么,过得好吗?每一次我都很有冲动想传个简讯或拨打个电话给你,然而我的理性战胜了自己的感性。毕竟我还是知道有些界线是自己不可以跨越的。我好像告诉他“我每一天每个小时每分每秒都在想念你,如果我可以想你更多,我愿意!”

每当我在想他的时候,回味过去几个星期来与他的种种,我总是禁不住地问自己他也是在想我吗?

我想我永远不会忘记,在一次相聚的时候,他好无顾忌的在我的嘴唇,和我脸上轻轻地吻上去,这对我来说,绝对是奢侈的,是甜蜜的。然而,在甜蜜之于,他悄悄地对我说,他已经有了一个很要好的异性朋友,他们两个人已发展成男女朋友的关系了。当时我的心情是要怎样来形容呢?我想我是不会忘记这一个晚上。

然而,这一切一切对我来说,是不应该发生的。或许我可以说这是精神上的出轨。我应该将这感觉埋藏在我内心深处吗?还是继续享受这精神上的出轨?我的理性真的能够战胜自己的感性吗?

这真的让我很苦脑。。。。。。

Monday, August 17, 2009

a gathering at fren's studio

17th aug, 09. 1132hour

Last Saturday, I went to Chong's studio with frens, total 8 of us having a great night there.

I went to buy chicken wings which I been waiting there for 30mins. But is worth it as the wings really tasty. I can say is the best i ever tasted.

We hang there for couple hours and talked a lot of nonsense. I do have a great night there.










a k-noon @ Loud Speaker, Tmn. Sutera Utama

17th aug, 09. 1050hour

last Saturday, I went to k-box with Chris, another hangout with him again. In fact, we planned this the nite before when we were at Sense Cafe.

All this were plan at last minutes...erm, i think because of we are just YOUNG!! LOL

The place was pretty cool, once you stepped in, u will feel like u were at hotel. It definitely different from other k-box. As for service wise, they did provided good customer service with sweet smile. U may think is because of the k-box is new, well just wait and see!!!!

Overall decoration is just nice and the room itself looked clean. Erm, as for price wise, I can said, it quite cheap. I was there with Chris from 3pm to 6pm, it just cost us RM18 per pax, come with 2 FOC drinks. One thing I want to emphasize here, RM18 is totally NETT and no Service Charges/ Compulsory Tibbits. Not like other, it ended up double of the price after added this and that.

I can say - u get wat u paid for!!!