a breakable friendship II

31st july, 09. 0558hour

de moment i write this, i am happy, yes extremely happy to have something back into my miserable life which last a week....

after the incident 24th july, i've learned and grown into another extent. I realize everyone in this world is jz unique. though i know this yrs ago, but now i do realized this "fact" in "further extent".

The friendship built with him is not tat easy, i understand that myself just cant really let go of it. but, after the stupid message out, i just have no courage to pick up the phone to call him. Though i told myself to call him, when the moment i feel like really want to make the call, i just have no courage to do so.

Well, this really sound stupid....The incident lead me into miserable life. the funniest and biggest of the year - dig a big deep hole for myself!!!!

Until yesterday, i smsED him and try to "rescue" the relationship. I've been waiting for his reply for hours. I started to worry "Does he really angry at me?" Well, every minutes seem "flies slow". Then again, i started to check my phone if it accidently turned off, out of coverage....and whenever sms or come in, i just wish is from him.

A fren told me, he might just too busy to reply me and I was just too imaginative. Ya, i think so. Too imaginative, what a perfect words to describe me.

Finally, received a sms from him and the cloud above my bighead seem cleared. I was just happy....erm i rather say excited!!! We have arranged a lunch later at 1pm, i was too eager and cant wait for the lunch as i believed i will have a wonderful moment then.

"Again, bro, I want to say sorry for my harsh message. I love u, bro!!" Wel, it sound so gayish rite? i think so...haha...but i can tell is all beyond.....

my korean bbQ @ Korea Family Restaurant 食客

27th july, 09. 1714hour

i went for my korean bbq lunch last Sat @ Korea Family Restaurant 食客. It located at Taman Pelangi. Same row with a steamboat restaurant called 意游胃盡 （a taiwan cuisine restaurant, mainly steamboat).

de outlook of the restaurant

smoking area

cashier counter

little bar??!!!

interior!!

set lunch for 4 pax, but big serving with pot rice and soup. 5pax is better, else too full!!

FOC snack...very tasty

the waiter from Korea & can speak chinese well. He will help u & u just sit there waiting for you food.

delicious!?? YES :-)

can't wait? go n try...

this is free flow...for your healthy purpose...lol

u also must try their fruit juice. 2 thumbs UP!!!

a breakable friendship

25th july, 09. 1312hour

I really don’t know wat happened to me, I don’t even understand why I sent out the message, is going to be huge impact??!!! There is only one stupid reason for me – I just don’t want to be so FAKE!!!! But, does it sound that I am really dumb? In this reality world, everyone put on their different mask in their daily life......

Not denying, I was very sad and ofcuz fed up.

I don’t know why, all of sudden he posted me a message “I am not sure how long I will stay in JB……”. Be frank, what will you react when you got this message from a closed friend, or I rather named it brother. I started to figure out something which is not good. Then immediately I SMSed him asking what happened to him. It ended up with a stupid reply “haha…nothing”.

He told me something is going happened but it yet to confirm. If he were telling me now, and the outcome is far different, he will feel shame. A friend I called brother refuse to share thing with me is because of one word – SHAME!!!! What a shame huh…

I don’t know why all of sudden I felt so angry. I don’t know where is my courage came from, I sent him a message “Means is something lor. Since u r so reluctant to tell. Ok la…u jz do whatever as u like la.” It seem like clearly indicated I was angry. Immediately, i received a call from him, but i not answering is because i really don't know what to talk with him and i don't have the courage to face it.

He asked me if i were angry? After deep thought, I sent him another message which I really foresee i may lose the friendship with him. But i jz wanted to let him know that what in my mind.

I told him, "if you were ask me, i can tell u YES!! i don't want to say something which is too fake.

I learned that we can jz share happiness. Maybe i was too care about this, yes too care I meant it. N this caused me over-react.

Now only i realized our friendship is jz breakable. Maybe is time for me to evaluate de frenship btw us. Tis is wat so called "bro"?? Haha...for me, v r not much different from those who are normal fren.

Shame? I think tis de funniest joke 4me. I'd rather u tell me nothing instead of tell me half. V were worried just now. Wondering wat had happened 2u n figured out many possibilities. One of the possibilities is u got promoted n might transfer 2other branch.

Making fool n end up jz tell me nothing. Tis really funny 4me. All of sudden feel like a fool."

Wow...this is wat i sent to him. After tat, i started to worried. M i too serious into this matter? I have a sleepless nite for the whole nite. On my way to work this morning, i felt regretted for wat i've done yesterday. Tears drop...i dont know why...all of sudden those moment that we went through together, flashing back...again...tears drop...i m even sad now...

i asked myself "can it be turned back??" Actually, wat i wanted is very simple. If u were want to tell me, pls tell me the whole story so tat we can share no matter happiness or sadness. Even the end results is not as wat u think, u shouldnt feel shame as we are brothers. If YES, we will be more happier. If NO, we can share your sadness. SHAME?? B frank, your un-intented message do hurt me.

Over-react? I think i just too care, yes i meant it!!!!

Anyway, nothing can be said now, de die has been cast. Let's natural take its course. No matter wat will happened in future, you still my bro always, and wat we have went through, will be kept deep inside my heart.

"I Love U, bro!!!"

Indian Cuisine @ Restaurant Chakra

25th july 09, 0927hour

lunch at Restaurant Chakra

i went to this restaurant for my lunch and it was jz perfect...in fact i saw this restaurant long time ago and wanted to try, it jz not able to make it...finally yesterday can go makan there...

The word Chakra in Tamil means chariot wheel. In Sanskrit it refers to the seven points of the body associated with meditation.



































de restaurant itself is located at Jalan Yusuf Taha, it is near to thistle hotel (previously is Hyatt). here you go the road map:-


the restaurant itself was actually converted from a pre-war colonial bungalow. and instead of specializing only in one style of indian cooking, it offers dishes from all parts of the Indian Sub-Continent. You must try!!!!

a promise is a promise

18th july 09, 1630hour

my memory flashed back to 3 yrs ago

i loved music and music is so important in my life, i can't imagine how my life will be if without music??!! i loved to shared good music with people surrounding me...

whatsoever kind of music also good for me, and oldies is one of my favor...in my earlier blog, i did mentioned some vip during my life in venture, one of them is also music lover - my ah gong. we shared music and music became one of our topics...

stil remember he ever asked me if i listen to Baccara...be honest, i m not even know who is Baccara..wuahaha...back then only i realized that Baccara was famous group 30yrs ago...i told him i will continue to search until i get it...deep in my heart as a token of appreciation....

is hard to get their album nowadays and even i've tried to get it from internet. Major music shops also cant find unless internet buying!!!!


but, as of today, i finally get their 30th Anniversary album. Friend of mine jz passed me 1/3, i m still waiting for remaining 2/3. Once i completed the collection, i will pass it to my ah gong as this is a promise to him...though 3 yrs ago.....wuahahaah

http://images.amazon.com/images/P/B000006SME.jpg

happy birthday

14th july 09 1647hour

my brader warned me not to disclosed below pic to any 3rd party, but after deep consideration, i decided to ignore his warning where good stuff need to be shared....


brader, happy birthday ya...hope u like this...

cheers

my litle angel ~ felicia~

13th july 09, 1900hour

yesterday, i went back home as usual but there is big different for me as my daughter was awaiting my return at the entrance, sitting on her walker with her smile, erm...i rather say very sweet smile...it seem like welcoming me back!!! how sweet i m at the moment...

all of sudden, whatsoever stress or burden i have to face outside were worth and were all paid with the smile from this little angel.












my little angel - felicia turned 8 months

a good news from a fren

13th july 09, 1000hour

first of all - steve & nicole, congratulations!!!

when i logged in my facebook (this is my very first job when i step into my cubical nowadays), i saw friend request from chong wai keat, surprisingly.....

later, i saw his prewedding pics with nicole, i was a little bit stoned....then i feel happy for them...

look at below pics, elegant? romantic? for me, i saw the happiness between 2 of them.





though we never contact each other for years, but i was happy to be their VIP guest on coming 7th Nov. erm....i hope to be their VVIP anyway....lol

i've learned that lasting friendship doesn't meant that we need to meet each other everyday. So long we have each other in our heart, the frenship in between will be kept for sure...

bro, cheers...

sweet memory

12th july 09 2043hour

today is the 1130th day after i left venture

all of sudden, i feel like missing all my team-mates during the period i was there,and automatically i walked to my wall shelve and took out those album, i flip it page by page and looking at those memorable pic...

from de left - me - ricky - casey - alvin and ivan at the back

my team called v5 - casey, ricky, alvin and ivan. all these fellas were just mad all de times. they did brought me the happiest time when i was there. we went pub, disco, k-box, casino, bowling, beach...those youngster activities and the most significant moment, i think is ricky's good job. he ordered 5 BIG bottles of Carlsberg for us...this wil not be erased forever....stupid ricky!!! V5 Forever, i love u!!!!

lee chuen & me travelled to desaru

not forgotten my pretty master - lee chuen, she is de one who trained me there and we used to travel into singapore for site support. she is kind of funny person, sometimes jz throw her key to me and asked me"let's go singapore, u drive!!!" then i LL go n drive her car lor...she ever told me my impression to her is dammmm DUMB!!!!
i was wondering why, "m i looked dumb?", she told me YES!!!! crazy woman....:-)

de moment i worked with her were so memorable.

my ah gong - Wee & me at his workstation @ my last day in venture

again, there is another vip person that really "sayang" me - wee, i always called him ah-gong. ah-gong doesn't means stupid, it means grandpa!!! he used to teach me a lot as far as my job is concern. Stil remember by de way i kena scoldED by my OM, he told me, "sooner or later, u wil get used to it"...though is hurt by getting scold but feel warm when he came n comfort me....this is so call fren-superior...i like the relationship tis way...

see, all these are jz like happened yesterday but in fact it were 5yrs ago...all these are my sweet memory and i told myself to refresh this periodically and share with my next generation when they grow up...

meaningful miSSed caLLs...

11th july 09 1246hour

i have 3 missed calls from u but i am unable to answer your calls.
i asked myself if you were thinking about me or miss me??!! i wish to know
but, one thing i can tell myself that i do miss you, yes, i meant it, I MISS U from the bottom of my heart...

from the day i met you, i was missing you every minutes of every day, and if i could miss you more that that, i would!!